Today, I awoke to a cramp in my side- a literal pain in my ass from hours of driving this weekend, far too many emails to answer, bills to pay, several loads of wash to handle and a food shopping list that needed to be acquired. What I initially yearned to do was dive back under the covers and pretend it all away. Maybe just watch bad TV all morning and not deal with my current state. Instead, after some time under the covers, I decided it was okay to feel overwhelmed, physically mediocre and move at a slower pace than usual. The key here was movement.
I knew deep down that if I ignored all the “to do’s”, they would just pile higher and I would feel even shittier tomorrow morning, perhaps without the pain in my ass, but still pretty crumby. So, I took my coffee and laptop to bed (a nice compromise), went through my emails, handled what needed answering right away and then slowly got up. I took a moment to make an honest inventory of what actually needed to be done and what could wait, and then began my day.
So many women want to be Queens of their own lives and yet so many live in the realm of excuses. I am not suggesting your worth is equivalent to what you get done in a day, BUT what you get done in a day should reflect the queendom you are actively co-creating with spirit. I am also not suggesting we all shouldn’t nurture ourselves and take time off, but when we do not tend what needs tending, it only compounds. That is the plain and simple truth I often use the garden as a metaphor for life and I will say that since I have ignored my front beds this summer, the weeds that have taken over are now more deeply rooted and much harder to pull then when I tended to them daily a little at a time.
I want to create a life, inner and outer, that resonates with my soul. In order to do, this I must participate, even with that pain in the butt. Today, I won’t get everything on my list complete, I am not moving fast but I am pulling some of the weeds while wearing my crown, drinking tea for my cramps. If we want a queendom that nourishes, we must tend and nurture it every day.